I’ve got less than two months of my high school career left, and yes, I’m counting down the days. That might be a bad thing to say, but I am most definitely ready for the next chapter in my life. You can call it senioritis or that I’m just delusional  if you want, but my dreams and the student burnout in me is ready to move on from Xavier.

A part of me never thought I’d feel this way because I’m deathly afraid of change, but I can’t help but daydream in the middle of class about what my life will look like in less than a year. I have a lot of things undecided when it comes to college. As of right now, I’m still struggling to find a roommate, but not even all the stress from that can hold me back from what my life may hold for me. 

I do like Xavier. A lot of great things have happened to me here. Xavier cheerleading has actually been a wonderful experience for me and I’m genuinely sad that I’m technically a retired Xavier cheerleader now. It actually pains me to say that, but the memories will live on in my heart and that will never go away. Xavier has also taught me so many valuable lessons and has turned me into a hard worker,  but  I  do  believe  that  there  is more to life than the Xavier bubble. 

Many will tell me to live in the moment, but honestly, I’d rather not. I’m not saying that the final moments of senior year are bad, but I want to expand my horizons and see what’s waiting for me on the other side. A lot of senior events at Xavier are coming, such as the senior retreat and the senior walk, among other things, and I will live in the moment for these, but I choose to also dream about where my life could take me in college and beyond. 

It’s okay to daydream about the future and not live in the present. I’m only seventeen and I’ve got the rest of my life to live. I could be twenty-six and living my best life in California as I learn to surf because no one knows. It could actually happen. So take the time to venture into the unknown.